Sometimes life is amazing, and sometimes it spins you in circles and creates the most dizzying effect on your brain. This week has been this way. My relationship with my fiance isn't always the best, but I love him and when I have super crazy psycho moments he looks at me and tells me he loves me and snap out of it. This week we have been fighting, I haven't been home in days. I'm standing my ground and telling him I want the respect I deserve, that sometimes the things he pulls is really bullshit, and that I deserve for him to try as hard with us as I do. And the last 3 days has been full of fighting, screaming, yelling cuz I told him he's selfish... is part of this my fault? Of course. I enabled him for so long. Now to attempt correction seems out of the picture. I feel his priorities aren't where they should be and I'm telling him why. And what I'm receiving is agonizing heart ache.
I WANT TO GO HOME. I WANT TO SNUGGLE IN MY BED WITH MY HEAD ON HIS CHEST AND HIS HANDS IN MY HAIR AND KISSES ON MY FOREHEAD. I WANT MY KITTY AND MY DOG AND MY LIFE. I WANT MY HOME THAT I HAVE WITH HIM. ALL I WANT IS TO GO HOME. This is truly agonizing.
He doesn't read my blog so he won't be reading this, but he is the man I love and all I want is to go home.
There is no place like home.
*Breezie*
A happier time.... him and i..
I WANT TO GO HOME. I WANT TO SNUGGLE IN MY BED WITH MY HEAD ON HIS CHEST AND HIS HANDS IN MY HAIR AND KISSES ON MY FOREHEAD. I WANT MY KITTY AND MY DOG AND MY LIFE. I WANT MY HOME THAT I HAVE WITH HIM. ALL I WANT IS TO GO HOME. This is truly agonizing.
He doesn't read my blog so he won't be reading this, but he is the man I love and all I want is to go home.
There is no place like home.
*Breezie*
A happier time.... him and i..
I hope you can go home soon. That sucks to hear :(
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Things will get better boo.. It was nice having you here to myself for a few days, those I wasn't fond of the circumstances. Anytime you need me Breezie, You know I'm here. Things will level out, Josh Knows your worth it, he just has to pull his head our of his butt. I love you... BOTH of you.<3
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